make chia seed cereal goop.
go back to bed while they soak.
dream about gluten free pancakes.
recognise you know exactly why you drank, even last night as you consciously passed your 1.75 limit. recognise it’s okay, as the two year anniversary of your life falling apart is coming up like a head on truck, and forgive yourself.
last night you dreamt you were in the passenger seat of a fancy speeding pickup truck, dressed for a night out in heels and slinky dress. there was no driver. you had to shift to the driver’s seat in the middle of traffic and guide the truck to safety while cars crashed all around you.
you also dreamt that you found a dead and frozen barn owl hanging by string on a lamp post. you took it down and carried it with you through the snowstorm.
you also dreamt a friend cracked through the ice on a beach and fell in the freezing water. you had to lie down on the cold and grab their hands to help them slide out and over the ice before you both fell in again. there were violent waves further out. you had their shoulders under one hand and the frozen barn owl dangling from the other. you were tired, but knew you had to hold on.
today is another day.
breathe. work. stretch. eat. smile.
take it slow & easy.